Misery does Love its Company!

There are times in your life that you experience things that you want to tell every single person you come in contact with, but the reality is you cannot. For example, a momentous event such as you are in love, and maybe you just realized it. You may be able to tell your mom, and a few friends, but that friend that has been wanting to fall in love for years and never seems to be able to, you cannot tell her.

Or say you got the perfect job and some of your friends hate theirs, they are doing nothing that they went to school for. You cannot be too excited when you tell them, if you care about their feelings at all.

Or maybe you are trying to get fit. You are working out and eating right, no diets or gimmicks. You have lost some weight, but every single person that you want to tell, has not had the same success as you. You want to shout it from the roof tops, but really most people would just hate you and not want to talk to you. It would be counter productive. I felt that way today, for a week I have worked out and ate reasonably well and I have lost three pounds, but today I did not feel as though I could tell anyone because I did not want to be pushing it in their faces.

The reality is that most people are not happy for you when your life is going well, or maybe even one area is going well. They do not want to hear it, if their life is not. It is true misery does love company.

Sorry to be cynical, but their are a few people that will be happy regardless, and these people care more about you than they do about themselves! These people are real treasures, keep em close!

Hey, I travel.

One night I am in New York working in a diner and living in an apartment that could be infested with who knows what.

Then I am in California watching a guy that makes his rounds to many different girls, and they all know about it.

After that I hit up Hawaii where crime fighting is ruthless. I enjoy going to the Hamptons to visit some spiteful people and watch them self-destruct.

I like the weather in Ohio and man they have some talent, signing dancing, acting.

I told my mom, "In one night I am in New York, California and Hawaii, hey, I travel."

If you have not caught on I am discussing TV shows. Going to New York in 2 Broke Girls. Watching a guy swoon girls in California is with the Bachelor. In Hawaii I see 5-0 and in the Hamptons a girl is getting Revenge. In Ohio the Glee club is present and accounting for.

I go all over the world with Pan Am and see exotic places in Survivor and Amazing Race. If I was a recluse and did not want to get off of my couch I would say that is good enough. Getting a second hand view of someone else's ohhh and ahhhh moment.

I desire to have my own ohhh and ahhh moments that are not contingent on someone else's experience. I want to see the majesty in the Taj Mahal, I want to see the blue ocean in contrast to the white houses in Greece. I want to experience the hustle and bustle of Africa.

I want to do and experience first hand, not through second rate, oops I got my finger in that, picture.

25 facts.

1. I love trivia, Trivial Pursuit, Jeopardy, love it all.

2. I have a favorite wood pile, it is on the way to my grandma's and for some reason it brings me joy.

3. I know how to knit, sew, and crochet.

4. I love Bob Harper.

5. I am a huge Green Bay Packers fan, Aaron Rogers, Clay Matthews, I am available.

6. I hum a lot, when I eat, when I am bored and I generally do not notice it.

7. Like #5 I love watching football. My favorite: go to church and then grab lunch and bring it home to watch football. AMAZING!

8.I lived in Ecuador for 8 months and never ate their delicacy, qui, roasted guinea pig, I regret it.

9. I love movies that do not have a happy ending because it reminds me that life is not a fairy tale.

10. I really enjoy sad songs. I feel as though they are very real and relateable.

11. I love Canada. I miss it all the time. I lived there for 5 years.

12.I really enjoy sushi and was just informed by The Biggest Loser that it is not very healthy.

13. I love to dance and wish that I would have taken lessons when I was younger.

14. My favorite movie is Charlie/Willie Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, both of them.

15. I love WoodChuck beer, it is the only kind I can stand.

16.I was the first to graduate from University on my Dad's side of the family.

17. I love the first snow fall of the year.

18. My favorite food is Mexican.

19. I watch about 15 different TV shows, it is ridiculous I know.

20. I love laughing it is my favorite thing to do.

21. I adore vintage one of a kind articles of clothing.

22. My favorite animals are penguins, owls, and giraffes.

23. Christmas time is one of my favorites of the year.

24. I love to talk!

25. I love teaching and being around little kids, they make me laugh so much, see #20!

One Door Closes, Hopefully One Opens!

So I found out that I did not get to the next stage of interviewing for Teach For America. I feel as though I am disappointed. I have a lot to offer, but I also had this feeling from the beginning in the way back of my mind that I would not get it. It was a weird tug-of-war. But now I know that I will not be apart of Teach For America. So now what...

I was kind of hoping that I would get into Teach For America because my next two years would be planned for me, but I guess God has other plans. I think he might want me to have to work a bit to find employment, or he wants to surprise me with something even better. I think he will show up in a way that I didn't expect because I had to trust, it wasn't just given to me.

But I am sitting here maybe 20 minutes after I found out that I did not make it into Teach For America and I have already started thinking of what I am going to do. I have begun to search for jobs in different locations, quite blindly I might add.

I am going to work at becoming certified in Illinois and then we shall see from there. I will have a provisional certificate for 2 years so that will for sure help with employment, but I feel as though I am back where I was when I graduated form University. No prospects. But hopefully something will come up and hopefully it will be perfect, maybe not forever, but at least for now.

Once Upon a Time filming in Fort Langley, BC Canada

I was so pleased to see Fort Langley, where I enjoyed coffee and boutiques for the last five years, on one of my new favorite shows Once Upon a Time. I love Fort Langley, it is so cute and small and lovely. I miss it greatly. If you ever have a chance to go to British Columbia, you have to visit Ft. Langley. (many shows and movies are filmed there).

Funny moment.

I was working at Family Video last night and I was taking a customer to the bathroom to unlock it for them. I am so used to saying Have a good night, when I hand customers their movies. When I was leaving him at the bathroom I began to say Have a go...and finished with ood time. I could hear him laughing and another customer was nearby and he started laughing. I didn't know how to rewind and take back the beginning of what I said that I just changed it a bit. I walked back the counter laughing and told my fellow employees they were laughing.

When the customer left he did inform me that he had a good time.

It reminded me of the comedian Bryan Regan, when he talks about going out to eat and the waitress saying have a good meal and you replying with you too. Funny.

"The first guy through the wall always gets bloody."

I was watching Moneyball, I got to watch it before it came out because of Family Video. It was a good movie, but one quote that stuck out to me was when Brad Pitt's character is talking with another owner he says you are getting beat up out there, but the first guy through the wall always gets bloody. It took me a bit to understand it. But it is so profoundly true.

Anyone who is a pioneer in anything gets banged up, because they figured it out. Other people know it is right, but were not the ones to come up with it. Or did not have the guts to say so. Pioneers are rare because it takes something that most of us do not have balls, And I am not meaning that it has to be a man, but the figurative balls. Courage. Most of us do not have it, or at least do not embrace it in every area of our lives. If we did then these moments would not be rare. If we did then who would follow, or maybe no one would need to because the world would be right. The world is not right so therefore we need courage. We need confidence in ourselves. Eventually everyone sees it is right and follows through the wall. They are successful too and then it is an afterthought.

Courage is something that I wish I had more of. I wish I could be someone that had my morals on my sleeve all the time. I do sometimes, but then other times I find that I am exhausted by it. Some might say that maybe I am in the wrong way of life, wrong friends, wrong job yada yada yada. But if I was always with the right friends, right job, right yada yada yada then I wouldn't need courage at all. Something to think about.

The first person through the wall always gets bloody.